It has been long. I am still writing about my trip so that I can post my experiences. I will definitely post them so please wait for it a bit more.
But, this is necessary. For me. For some of my closest friends. This post is dedicated to 'INFINITE' and my 'INSPIRIT' friends.
I started this morning with a negative thought. I started it by procrastinating. I was supposed to enter a competition and I had not even prepared.
Haha I am rambling nonsense.
But then, I saw a news statement which shocked me. And I didn't realize the magnitude of it until now.
By now, most of you who know me definitely know that I love a k-pop band called 'Infinite' with all my heart. I've even mentioned them so many times in my posts.
I came across this band when I was randomly seeing K-pop music videos. I really liked their music and I looked them up. And gradually I came to love them. I found out that they are genuine, they are happy, cheerful people who have worked like shit to come this far. They are a team of seven members, brothers who are all different in their personalities (obviously) and who are quirky but combined, they are inspirit, they are infinite.
I met people who also loved this band. They literally found me online and we all freaked out because we thought nobody in India even listened to k-pop, that too Infinite! (Well, they are the losers in that aspect because they've missed out on something magical)
And gradually our tiny group of 5 expanded with so many members from all over Asia, and we all bonded over this one single thing that connected us.
As the earliest group member, I have seen and been a part of so many conversations with my inspirit friends. We have had wonderful conversations, not only about our love for Infinite, but a variety of topics - world problems, Indian politics, geography, you name it...we've discussed it....and every conversation ended coming back to Infinite...to how grateful we always are that we met because of them. And how amazing it is that such a group of seven wonderful humans exist in our timeline.
We always talked about how Infinite would always be together. We were always secretly, so proud that our seven boys would never do something like disband or leave the group to pursue a different path. Even when we heard about other k-pop bands coming apart, when we discussed about them, we were so proud that we had Infinite - a solid rock - that would break all the rules and show to the world that they can stay together. And they will.
But, our solid rock......just crumbled to the ground.
We got the news that one member of Infinite, Lee Howon, Hoya, is respectfully leaving the group to pursue a different path.
You see, they had a contract renewal with their company and it seems that talks were going on whether they would continue the contract or not.
And..........and.........and yeah, so he's leaving the group and everybody else has signed the contract renewal.
And so, our lives are at a stand still. We are numb. I am numb. My heart is in pain. My throat hurts.
I've never even attended their concert. It was my dream to see them on stage, performing. to see all of them, seven of them.
I can never do that. I can never experience that.
Oh My God. I can never see them on a stage together.
Oh my god........oh my god..........
No way. No way.
So yeah, this is a big deal to me, to all of us.
And even though we will never get over this, and we will probably, randomly cry whenever we see or hear anything that remotely reminds us of this (which is everything), we all know that it is their choice.
It is their choice. Because it is their life.
They are seven different people who all have things they want to do; dreams to pursue, just like us.
We can only support them in whatever they do because that is what being a fan is. You can only just stand far and cheer them and support them.
So we will do what we are best at. We will support them. Because they need it, now more than ever.
They need it now, more than ever.
And if people leave, it only shows that they don't have respect for Infinite's decision.
Just like the quote which says "Hard times will always reveal true friends" or "It is during the worst times in your life that you will get to see the true colours of the people who say they care for you".....
The quote says it all.
And now, I am even more proud that Hoya chose to leave the group respectfully; after discussing it with the other members. There was no drama or bad incident which led to this. It was a mutual conclusion. WE thought that our boys would be an example in an industry where there are groups disbanding left and right. They are an example even now.........but in a different way.
I am still proud to be a part of this wonderful fandom.
We will get through this together. Even if we can't, we'll try as hell. We've come so far and been through so much guys, so we'll get through this too. Together. 함께
But now, I will cry. I will listen to all the songs about togetherness and Thank yous Infinite has ever sung and I will cry until I'm dehydrated and then I'll drink some water and cry some more.
Because I'll never see them on the stage together again.
Credits to the original owners of these awesome pictures. *cries*
Thank you INFINITE for all the wonderful things you've given me.
I am forever grateful. So so grateful.