New Year, New Day, Same old me. lol
It's been one month already. Guess some things never change. 😂😂
(Nah. Not gonna say that.)
So, I hope you all have been having a wonderful start to the new year. I did have an amazing start. Got to spend some time with my brother at California and then it snowed in Boston! Classes started! And it's already February. I'm sorry, what!? *looks around* Arey! Somebody break this stupid time! so that it'll go slow!!
Dragging myself back to the point, it's time for a review of 2018. You see, I tried writing it down but that never happened. Some things just flow when you're on a blogging page. (says this dumbass)
The year of so many events. It taught me many things, even till the end of December 31st.
The year of learning. Of utter bitterness and overwhelming feelings.
The year of changes. It was totally opposite than 'consistency' which was my word of the year. But it's okay. It was a year of many things, so I'm fine with that.
As usual, my year started with Infinite. Listening to their songs, discussing their new album. I started my final year project and things became hectic. But we had so much fun! My buddy lost her phone! And we literally chased the f**king thief on my scooty! The complete opposite of fun, I tell you. I met a few TeamSuper mates and it was hilarious! I literally went crazy applying for universities!
And had almost given up hope, when I got the offer letter from Boston University. I had called my brother the next freaking second and then my parents! That day was surreal. I had achieved my number one goal for the year! Getting admitted to a university in the U.S.!
Then the last semester of Masters. The final day in Mysuru!
And then shifting back home and cleaning my room for three days straight. Going back for laboratory practicals and then coming back reading books.
The two whole months of free time where I read as many books as I could. And traveled to Chennai for my visa interview and had a whole lot of fun with my buddy.
I also hosted a going-away party to bring all of my favorite people at one place, which was an awesome day! Even though some of my best peeps didn't turn up, it turned out to be a wonderful time.
And then, I flew 7124 miles from India to Boston! And you know the rest. I told you all about it in the previous post!
But, I should tell you about the ''Behind The Scenes". What was happening on the other side.
The entire year went downhill. I feel like I lost my confidence as the year progressed. My thinking turned negative unknowingly. I slowly fell into a deep dark pit of despair. I learned that I am a coward. A big, fat coward who hides behind the pretense of 'not knowing anything'. And that I also criticize myself. You see what I did there? Exactly.
These thoughts were so self-crippling. And being on social media and receiving a whole load of information every day did not help. I tried so hard to come out of that pit. I'm still trying to come out of it.
But I have also learned so many things about myself and the people around me. It has been a real eye-opener. There is a whole different world out here where people are more open-minded and welcome you with open arms. There are people who understand you and appreciate you instead of making fun of you; who genuinely want to know about you; who work hard; who f**king make plans and keep up to them. Organized people. Knowledgeable people. People who love self-help books. Yes. Self-help. People who are confident and smart and mean what they say. People who don't judge. People who don't talk behind your back.
I am grateful for having this opportunity to meet them. I am grateful for twenty eighteen.
Here's to you boi, for an eye-opening helluva year.
And 2019 - another year of learning, growing and CLIMBING.