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depression is not a choice

It’s pitch black. I can’t see a way out. I’m tumbling through the dark crevices of my mind and drop to a maze. The only discomfort is the barrage of voices that keep echoing, not leaving me alone. It’s a cacophony. I can’t stop these echoes. I can’t help but listen to them and each sentence is a lance through the heart. So I listen to it while stumbling around this dark unseeable maze looking for the switch to turn OFF these voices. “Do what you’re told.” “She never does what she’s told.” “Don’t do that.” “Don’t do this.” “Don’t be like that.” “What’s wrong with you?” “Don’t overact.” “Don’t show attitude.” “Just listen.” “Sumne bandid hudganna teppige madve agu.” “Jaasti aadbeda.” “Neen hakidre oota madalla.” “Yenaru maadkond haalag hogu. Nangen agbeku.” “Helid maate kelalla.” “I will not come to your marriage, ashte” “Adeno ppa, yeenu helalla. Ad yav lokadalli irtaalo.” “Avlige ishta bandhange maadtaale.” “Neen yaake hang ande?” “Neen yaake hang madde?” “Ninige sariyagi friends madko
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The most important lesson that needs to be taught in schools

Photo by Andy Montes de Oca on Unsplash As someone who enjoys anime and manga, I had never watched Naruto, until recently. I remember watching the show's ads when I was a kid and I'd heard about the show, but I never watched it partly because it's long and they have prolonged it by including many repeated scenes. Due to the lockdown, I had the time I needed and so, I watched the show. In simple terms, Naruto revolves around the story of a boy (named Naruto) in a small village who is shunned by everyone because he harbors a beast inside him. The story starts off small and gets interesting later where the plot expands (obviously). It's a story where villains have more fans than heroes and every character has something to teach you. What I love most about Naruto — the series and the boy himself— is his unwavering belief in himself. While the author tries to paint him as a stupid kid who is stubborn, I feel that Naruto has one of the most important traits that so many kids

Life Lessons: I met a boy

Photo by  Garidy Sanders  on  Unsplash Hello! I hope you are doing well, my reader. Thank you for waiting for me so patiently. My previous post sounded very puzzly and confusing. And I'm here... after a while, to write about that and maybe other things. I met a boy. It's not what you think. I'm not here to tell an airy-fairy, haha-I'm-in-love kinda crappy story. This is my blog, my space and I want to be truthful. I don't want to lie by masking the gender so... yes, I did meet a boy. Sometimes, life just throws a person at you, just to give you a perspective. Or to teach you a hard lesson. That's what this post is about. Life lessons. We became good friends. We had nothing in common except the fact that he read books. I held him in high esteem on the sole fact that he's a reader. That was my first mistake. I thought that we'd be lifelong friends. I even had grand dreams of meeting his friends, getting along, laughing and having a grea

A STANDSTILL

Hello, It's been a while. This whole post is going to sound like a puzzle or maybe just stupid. But it is what it is. The past few weeks have been a revelation. Haha. Revelation ( noun ) - a surprising and previously unknown fact, especially one that is made known in a dramatic way. Ironic that I chose that word. I have been tested like never before. I pushed my boundaries and made leaps, some foolish ones. Okay, most of them were foolish. Every aspect of myself has been challenged and it has left me feeling empty. I thought I hated drama, but I have learned that I am very dramatic. I feel like I don't even know who I am. So, I am going to explore. I am going to question every thought and filter everything that comes into my life. I will go back to certain memories (which are not going to be that reliable) and look at them differently and I will revisit what I put into my head when I was a child. And therefore, I have even questioned why I started this blog in th

2018 IN REVIEW

Helloooo, New Year, New Day, Same old me. lol It's been one month already. Guess some things never change. 😂😂 (Nah. Not gonna say that.) So, I hope you all have been having a wonderful start to the new year. I did have an amazing start. Got to spend some time with my brother at California and then it snowed in Boston! Classes started! And it's already February. I'm sorry, what!? *looks around* Arey! Somebody break this stupid time! so that it'll go slow!! Dragging myself back to the point, it's time for a review of 2018. You see, I tried writing it down but that never happened. Some things just flow when you're on a blogging page. (says this dumbass) Twenty Eighteen. The year of so many events. It taught me many things, even till the end of December 31st. The year of learning. Of utter bitterness and overwhelming feelings. The year of changes. It was totally opposite than 'consistency' which was my word of the year. But it's okay. I

Life Update 2.

Well well well, Hellooo from Boston!! How are you?? How's life? Everything going well? (stupid question to ask when it's the middle of the week; it's still Thursday...No it's Friday back home. I'm blabbering) For those who have no clue whatsoever, I am in Boston! to pursue my second masters' degree in science journalism. It's been three weeks (almost) since I've been here and it has been very challenging. (Yup, challenging is a good word to describe it.) So you guessed right. I will be talking about the past weeks and the transition. I was and am (still) excited about being here. I think that's something that won't go away, at least for now. I'm trying not to be excited because I have this stupid belief that if I keep up this excitement, something sad will happen. I think I'm confusing excitement with expectations. Back to the point, I was excited about coming here and I was ready for everything. I knew full well it would be d

PACKING LIST FOR MOVING TO ANOTHER COUNTRY

Hello! Now that everything is finalized, I can say without hesitation that I'll be moving to Boston this month, to pursue my Masters' in Science Journalism! Background: *screams* woohooooo Therefore, I started writing a list of the things I would have to take. I researched and found no proper packing list which was suitable for students (especially) who are moving to another country. And then it flashed - what if I make a packing list and put it in my blog? *pats self* So, here it is! I wracked my brain and wrote this list which includes stuff for both men and women (mostly women, I must say). Feel free to download it or take a printout and check off the things you have taken. Hope it helps! A couple of things before I sign off - 1) I am a stationery freak, so I included that section. Please ignore it if you don't intend to take any. But I must say that it is better to take the basic stuff, because stationery will obviously be expensive where you're